• For being pretty buff– I was obsessing over being fat, but then woke up in the morning, with an empty stomach, and realized — I really did not gain a bunch of fat. It was just the liquids and foods in my stomach making me appear that way.

    Otherwise… evvvveeerrryyything.

    To be alive, to be young still with the future ahead of me… for…[Read more]

  • @ladybarbara You have a good life. :-) Both you and immortal pirate.

    In cinema, you have to slice and dice the truth to make it into a coherent story. Really, can be hard to see in momentary slices of our “Now”… I think… but, from eagle eye view of the future, we can see some story.

  • @Jear77 I was not pretending to know your story…just was manipulative to get you to talk…

    Sorry.

    I had multiple sexual abuse issues, as well.

    Why do you think you freak ppl out?

  • @Jear77 Yeah, no, everyone has a story of eat, shit, fuck, raise kids.

    Not, obviously, what I am talking about.

    I know your story but if you disagree, please, do tell.

    You had a job, it went bad. Now you work a job. You want money from God.

    End of story.

  • @Santa Bunny Yeah, that is doubtful. Tell even a modicrum of it.

  • @Jear77 In context, I am talking about supernatural secrets, but I have used spy and hacker secrets as a demonstration. I can prove the later well (though active professional spies, in a foreign country or with sources they must protect would never do this). The former, the supernatural – you are right, there are scoffers, like your own…[Read more]

  • @Jear77 Good as in your definition. Good as in anyone”s. Not just sleep, eat, fuck. A real story.

  • Just starting up some questions and sticking more inline with Old Sk00L soulpancake style questions.

    I definitely have, and know a few here have as well (as everyone left). Enough so that I can see a movie,

    • Yes
      Yes
      Yes

    • define good. A person can have a good life that would be boring to others. Another person can have an exciting life that others may not want because of the danger involved. A third person may have a life that might be seen to be good from the outside, but the reality is hell. Everything depends on one’s point of view.

      • @Jear77 Good as in your definition. Good as in anyone”s. Not just sleep, eat, fuck. A real story.

        • @five2one Everyone has a story. You just have to filter it

          • @Jear77 Yeah, no, everyone has a story of eat, shit, fuck, raise kids.

            Not, obviously, what I am talking about.

            I know your story but if you disagree, please, do tell.

            You had a job, it went bad. Now you work a job. You want money from God.

            End of story.

            • @five2one not just that. I’ve dealt with poverty. No friends… or very few. Sexual Abuse. Physical abuse. Even things that should have been good… or at least better, ended up being very bad. College education is normally seen as a good thing. Didn’t help me at all to get a job. I still have few friends, as i freak people out. If it weren’t for some other factors, i might be an incel, but as it is, i don’t swing that way. The job you’re talking about was something so i could put on my resume… never once did i get enough money to live off of. So don’t you dare tell me you know my story. You only know a tiny part.

              • @Jear77 I was not pretending to know your story…just was manipulative to get you to talk…

                Sorry.

                I had multiple sexual abuse issues, as well.

                Why do you think you freak ppl out?

                • @five2one next time think about other possibilities, and try not be manipulative, asshole!

                  • @Jear77 everyone is always manipulative.

                    It is what communication does. Intends to do. Some are very bad at it, others are good at resisting.

                    You want to manipulate me into yout belief systrm. I resist that.

                    I am just not a hypocritical liar.

                    That is my religion.

                    As for your life, seven years or so, never heard ur real story before.

                    Like pulling teeth.

    • I can say with no uncertainty that I have a better life than anyone on this site.

      • @Santa Bunny Yeah, that is doubtful. Tell even a modicrum of it.

        • @five2one

          Those who have great lives do not feel the need to brag.

        • @five2one

          Doubt is your issue.

          • @Santa Bunny you claimed to be a 20 somethinh male. Sounds like you are a fifty something female now.

            You are good at lying, I will hand that to you.

            I never lie. It is against my angelic nature.

            Wheres your real life and real self? Oh, you won’t share.

            Why?

            Because it is something to hide.

            Hahahaha….

        • @five2one

          I could/would tell you my exact situation, and you won’t believe me, so what does it matter?

          • @Santa Bunny “I could/would tell you my exact situation, and you won’t believe me, so what does it matter?”

            Yeah, I would believe it, because say there was an error, and your email address connected to your acct isn’t pinkisthe[redacted]… or it is – does not matter – at best, you might be a movie star. Not a big deal to me.

            Work I do > movie star. Not to judge but since you won’t say anything.

            Maybe if you were a beautiful female movie start who was also on a special covert branch of seal team six… and had super regenerative powers beyond what wolverine has..

            Even then, that would be beneath what I have in my life.

            Only way you could slap me around is by being someone I have known in the past. And you would have to prove that by saying something only that person and I would know.

    • It has no real plot to the story. A lot of starts and stops. Starting and leaving. Try this, then try that. Like a buffet where you take a dab of everything and throw some parts away. Traveling, only to find myself wanting to go home. Going here and then going there. Raising sons, only to let them go to fly on their own. Doing this, then doing that. Nothing lasts and there is no set plan. It would be as exciting as watching a shopper at Costco going through the store sampling all of the samples. Putting things in my cart, then putting them back. One adventure after another and nothing consistent. Then ending with the cherry at the top —- finding an exciting man who is fun and changeable as a buffet. Now, I can stay in one place and find a full life of adventures. Life is finally fitting like an old, well worn pair of jeans. Life is comfortable, at last.

      It would make a movie seemingly without a plot, or goal.

      • @ladybarbara You have a good life. :-) Both you and immortal pirate.

        In cinema, you have to slice and dice the truth to make it into a coherent story. Really, can be hard to see in momentary slices of our “Now”… I think… but, from eagle eye view of the future, we can see some story.

        • @five2one There are times that Immortal Pirate and I could have met, or passed like ships in the night. At Woodstock Rock Festival, he was near the wooded area — past the porta-potty area, while I was literally within feet of the wooded area. I hung near the porta-potty area because I had my two sons with me. However, I was fully adult and would never have looked at a teenaged boy. Then, nearly 10 years after that, we both frequented the Balboa Park area in San Diego, and both of us were interested in the same science exhibits at the Rubin H. Fleet Science exhibits. We could have met, but didn’t. I was just into my 30s and Immortal Pirate was a mid-twenties sailor. I would have been flattered, but not interested. I was more interested in my sons learning by the hands-on science exhibits. No, we could not meet until we were both ready —- when I was a widow, and he was just widowed. Until then, it wouldn’t work. However, it would fit in a movie about our lives.

          • @ladybarbara That is so romantic! You guys are so cute.

            Definitely, movie material.

            Reminds me, on a darker note, of my current incursion into AA, and what dreadful steps finally took me there. That is, I could not quite drinking until I hit rock bottom, until the time was right.

    • From the beginning, my life has been an interesting story, and would probably make for a very long movie. If I could chose a director for said movie, I think I would pick Peter Jackson. His attention to detail makes every movie he directs a block buster. He directed the Lord Of The Rings movies…

      Not sure who I would cast to play me in the various roles at certain ages…they would be many and varied. It might even take multiple motion pictures to tell my life story.

    • I have a good life so by definition that makes it not good enough for movies. Good movies are about people with crap lives. Life can be crap but those moments pass as do the good ones. It is all perspective; and your overall outlook on things.

      • @Novelist65 I love this! You get it! Being a hero is about going through a great pile of burning crap! The audience just loves to see you do that!

        They have sympathy, but not really. The fun for them is they don’t have to be there for all the hard work, so they have a deep sense of relief.

        And, when you, the hero, get your reward, they share in it, too. Wo all the hard work.

    • I have an alright life. It’s nothing special. It would be a boring movie I think. My life is better than most considering there isn’t really any extreme either way.

      • @2Thrash You are maybe just in a mood? Anyone can have a better life, if they want to… but it isn’t all what it is cracked up to be.

        I am not comfortable with the mundane. The extreme has been normalized for me, though… though, I know it is just a matter of time before something else new happens.

  • @Jear77 Also, salvation happens now. We get our pay immediately. We live in the now and the today.

    You have zero assurance of after life being good for you.

  • For me, my current nemesis is santabunny, but I have had a lot of nemesis’ over the years. I certainly see it as, I have a better life then they do, so they learn to envy me. As Ishmael envied Isaac.

    The ‘dog

  • For me, I think a toxic relationship happens when the other person is being fake, and generally, not honest about their feelings and thoughts.

    Conversely, a good relationship requires upfront on one’s feelings,

    • A toxic relationship has a drunk in it that keeps falling off the wagon, losing his job, blaming me for his own failures, then beating me because he is angry at himself. Add to that both of us had hot and fiery tempers. He wanted to kill me and I was always ready to leave —— and then I did.

      A toxic relationship has a womanizer who cannot stop chasing skirts. Life is full of young lovelies in a buffet, and I am the tuna sandwich at home. When I wanted a life of my own, I found the door and I left —– the end.

      Then, I loved myself enough to want only the best and nothing is toxic. Life is delicious.

    • A toxic relationship is any relationship where everyone involved is not actively trying to make the relationship better.

  • @Santa Bunny What do you know? I don’t know if Rainn Wilson was ever involved in the creation of original version of the site, but even if he was not, it was based off a book he wrote.

    You have never been here before, unless you somehow followed me from here, the doors site.

    Which would be odd.

    Why stalketh little old me, if I am the…[Read more]

  • This has been a major focus of mine, on this forum. To see how people handle truth. This is why I sacrificed a number of secret, private truths over the years here… be it about spies and spying, or about elite

    • If you’re willing to expose yourself to ridicule and strange looks, law enforcement (i.e. prison), and/or persecution, you can declare a secret. But some things that are that secret are dangerous. By exposing them to the light, someone might not want said secrets to come out, you risk assassination, job loss, and infamy. The purpose of secrets (gasp!) is to remain secret, no? By exposing them… they’re no longer secret.

      • @Jear77 most secrets, no one gives a damned.

        • @five2one then they shouldn’t be called secrets…

          • @Jear77 In context, I am talking about supernatural secrets, but I have used spy and hacker secrets as a demonstration. I can prove the later well (though active professional spies, in a foreign country or with sources they must protect would never do this). The former, the supernatural – you are right, there are scoffers, like your own self…

            Though you keep up on the God thing with me, probably because you do see me as having some kind of access. Which I do have.

            But, I can’t pay you the money you want from God so bad.

            I am not God.

            You are a spectacle. Most of my posts are not about God, you make every post about God. Nobody else here does this, though Griz had his fetish.

            God owes you money, and you are griping until he pays.

            Otherwise, really, as I have always said, you don’t know what is going on, and being this rude as you consistently are on the subject won’t earn you a dime.

            Unless, you really were Job.

            • @five2one while wealth would be most welcome… even that really no longer suffices in and of itself. I am trying not to be in pain, as i twisted my ankle, both spraining and straining it badly… the problems have bern ongoing for a month. My dad thinks i might have to keep it wrapped up the rest of my life. It’s a problematic needing to wonder if my body will collapse under my weight, as i simply can’t not move around…

  • @Jear77 The scientific method has a wide variety of flaws and certainly is not how we measure and perceive reality.

    Did you know I met and received a medal from President Obama?

    Well, I did not. But, could you have believed that, if I did.

    Did you know I won the local city’s contest at eating hot dogs?

    Well, I did not, but you could…[Read more]

  • @Santa Bunny I am used to people hating on me. It may be new on you to get obsessed about someone, but because I am so good… it is something I am well used to.

    Touche.

    Riposte.

    Slayed.

    I am Jim Morrison. You could never guess that, because you have no proof I am not.

    Who else would have been slouching around at that site? Who else…[Read more]

  • @ladybarbara Haha… it has been out since the 80s.. I saw it as a teenager. It came out when I was ten. You should check it out. It is a romantic guy’s film, but one women can get into.

  • @Santa Bunny You are nutso. I have known some of these people for years. I did not have multiple identities, but some here do. Identities they have kept going for years. You are out of your league, pinkisthesky.

    I did not even try to do an alternate identity. I used the same picture, and kept to my same person.

    This site was started by a…[Read more]

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