i feel like maturity and acceptance are ‘cures’ as well. if we accept that a something exists, this doesnt mean we have to accept it for ever. but dropping the binds of expectation always lighten my load. what is wrong with awareness i wonder? sure it isnt easy breezy. but knowing something exists also means knowing the possibilities of change…[Read more]

i think the answers are within.
our perspectives. reactions. emotional connections. behaviors etc. what we are guided by intrinsically.
so if we want to change, or reach enlightenment, or heal, or grow or be, etc… we need to look deep within ourselves. that which holds us back usually had deep roots and we dont like to dig down there, but we…[Read more]

my highs and lows came at work. they usually do :D one of the residents called me Ducky, which is eastern canadian speak for Girl really, but in an affectionate way. it made me smile. the other day he called me Sparky though :D but that makes me smile too. thats me Sparky !my low was probably just watching tensions grow between a couple of…[Read more]

@Gina my walks home from work are essential. its the 25 minutes of peace and outdoors, time to myself, even if i am in motion. motion is like meditation for me. sometimes i listen to music. i see the same faces every day. very neighbourly. the man with the amazingly cheerful smile and the non chalant dog :D but my day is done, the walk is my me…[Read more]

i have mixed feelings about this message. i think it is a good lesson for anyone, make what you do worth it, dont get as caught up in the end game as the process. journey not destination. but then i am someone who also thinks the goal is important. what are you aiming for? do it for meaning or dont do it? do it well not half assed… what we do is…[Read more]

music recipes and creativity
and if i Really need a lift, getting outdoors does it for me

@griz still trudging through winter, being careful out there but not enough to keep the sinus colds at bay. will push through, we are toughies

hope things are well. i havent been on in a while, will go see whats new now.

@Spitfire3dC do you think letting go of expectation is pessimistic? i have always believed in a way that letting go of expectation is a relief. cant be disappointed. surprise when things go well, or rather…. confident things will go well when i know it, but not disappointed if i dont expect the best of someone i guess? (this only applies to…[Read more]

@Spitfire3dC that Is a good point, making music in live capacities – that must be where the money is now! pretty much always has been for anyone not huge. thats what i Did before mother hood, my social life was music. any band that came to town, i was there. now its rare i make plans and spend money but when i do, its still music. one of my…[Read more]